i've passed my basic theory of driving! =)
the moment i pressed the button to end the test, my heart sank as i thought i would have failed.
considering the way they ask the questions, i'm not surprised to find many people failing.
the worst thing was when the candidates didn't even know how they were killed.
it's just sheer luck and i'm so glad to be blessed.

他住在台北縣的一個土城市　
三年級四年級都是這麼皮
沒有人相信他會讓人看得起　
只想當個孩子王讓大家尊敬

小學五年級　拿到的第一把琴　
木頭質料真的讓人覺得爛得可以
不過他不在意　他小心翼翼　
他心碎著家裡窮沒有繼續學下去

我 TRY　TRY 以後的未來　
我期待　那舞台　
我 TRY　TRY 以後的未來　
就算失敗　我也會不斷重來

經過了小學中學他畢了業　
學校所教的知識跟他告別
回憶學校不是書本而是玩音樂　
家人頭痛煩惱他是畢業還是失業

他假裝聽不見　只希望他的夢實現　
歌寫了好幾遍　就是沒人聽見
他家人反對　不准他玩音樂　
他堅持賭上自己的未來也不後悔

我準備好站上我的舞台　帶著我的霸王劍拿下江山未來
我準備好站上我的舞台　帶著我的霸王劍拿下江山未來

終於　站上這個舞台　
我明白　不簡單終於　
站上這個舞台　就算失敗　
我也會不斷重來

i listened to this song repetitively. tank should be dictating his life story to us. i really wish i can be like him, to pursue this arena, but i'm in a practical world and i can't do anything without a degree. our showbiz industry is not as active as taiwan. i guess i would just drown in the big pool of talents.

this song is so hopeful and encouraging. probably i should stop moping over my a level results and that i can't get into any university courses.

i feel like crying.

went to my cousin's house for lunch before rushing down for my sales job. my whole chinese new year holidays were smashed by the extra work i had to do for my sales job. it's torturous to be reminded that other people had the day off and were enjoying their lives in other people's houses, gambling and winning money. never mind, i can earn more money. =)

fortunately my dad came to drive us back these couple of days, so i could reach home earlier and pack for my administrative job tomorrow. =)

breakfast with my besties plus opg. they said we could sing the opposite gender version of 'zhi dui ni you gan jue'. o.O

went to jane's place there for a simple breakfast before going to her house to watch fahrenheit's videos. such a pity yan didn't manage to join us in the morning. but still, she managed to rush here in the nick of time to send me off. =P

hana kimi special programme was broadcasted and i watched it with beloved jane and chuz. =) so happy. the other 2 members of fahrenheit were invited to participate too! i'm so glad da dong's team won and i felt my heart twitched when i saw da dong's eye injury. ouch! opps! no more da dongs here.

and we managed to watch a little of ko one episode 2. i should be the slowest progressor amongst them all. it's kind of lame but da dong's really charming inside the show. fine! i shall stop. everybody, watch ko one on youtube yea? i don't think they'll broadcast it in singapore because it's too notorious. =) da dong rocks!

usual routine again. i don't understand why some people like to pinch on hongbaos. i still recall somebody not giving us hongbaos, be it unintentionally or deliberately. hello, do i look like i'm married? let's assume it's just a case of forgetfulness, so it occurred again this year where that somebody refused to give my sis and i the angbaos after giving all the other kids. stingy.

but still,
happy chinese new year!
may all the unhappiness float away with the high spirits! =)



credits

新年快乐！=）

今年的新年来得特别快。今天就已经是除夕了。没想到今天我还做了不少事，竟然自己一个人把整间厨房的地洗得干干净净，还整理了书桌，摆好了年货，弄好了祭品。

明天又要开始拜访了，还好成绩没有在新年前公布，否则，我这个新年一定很难挨。

不知道为什么，今年觉得新年似乎没有什么好期待的。可能因为自己忙着工作，没什么参与买年货及打扫吧，又没什么听到新年歌曲，所以好像没有什么气氛。衣服老早也在泰国旅行时买了，所以也不需要买新衣了。今年的新年真无聊。

nobody's in the mood for anything. today is a slack day. =)

initially, my friends asked me out for a sort of reunion dinner with them, but i had wanted to clear my stuffs for the new year, so i rejected them. then my besties wanted to meet up to have a sort of reunion dinner with them because yan won't be in singapore for the new year. am i bad because i didn't go out with my friends but my besties? i have been rejecting many of their invitations due to my tight schedule. i'll try my very best to make it for the next round then.

i'm so so tired, but i want to watch hana kimi. =) byebye.

i don't think i can write anything for the people at ica anymore. i think i ought to give my 2 colleagues at takashimaya something more other than the fish chocolate. afterall, i've gotten my first pay from them. =) and ya, so sorry, i can't write any memos for my friends because i'm tired from my sales job and all. i'll sacrifice them. =P sorry!

so i'm going to sleep late again and finish off the stuffs.

another brand new week and it'll be a crazy week for me. =) counting down to the new year for some rest and enjoyment!

i'm going out with my besties on wednesday for vday! =) so sweeet, so i have to change my shift to monday and tuesday for the sales job this week. i think i'll be zonked out soon. i thought it's not so bad if it's on wednesday and thursday because the last 2 days seem to be a motivation to push me on with the weekends ahead. but, it's changed and my monday blues seem to have a greater impact.

how about this? i'm still not sleeping.

i have to finish making the necklaces for my best friends. i need to write the new year cards too. i had wanted to write a small note for each and every one at my administrative workplace, but i'm really tired and there's not enough time. i think i'll write tomorrow if i can.

goodnight for now.

爱到 （飞轮海）
爱到　爱到脑海里有一万个你　快爆掉
你一个眼神我什么都好　或许就是狠狠爱到
这就是电到　爱到　爱到
每夜失眠脸上却还傻傻　在微笑
谁叫你　可爱到　无法救药　
让我这样狠狠爱到 （就是爱到 ）

黑色的瞳孔带着闪光
空气中飘著你无敌迷人发香
每一个小动作都吸引我
就算洗脑　也无法　将你忘掉

我学会什么叫二话不说
你开口我就没办法 Say No Woo Oh
这感觉找不到适合形容
费洛蒙　向我进攻　就被你掌控 Oh Baby

将你缝上纽扣扣住我
爱到不让你有任何机会挣脱
在一起的时间绝不错过
车子后座　我只会　为你保留

就是想要把你占为己有
不要你出现在别人眼中 Woo Oh
紧紧抱住你哪怕会痛
舍不得　眨眼怕少看你一秒钟 Oh Baby~
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怎么样？我就是喜欢飞轮海。

连续看了三集的《花样》，然后又开始看了一点点《终极》。我想我中毒了。有点害怕自己对大东的感觉会突然消失。世事无常，或许我很快就不会喜欢大东了。好多人喜欢飞轮海哦。或许有没有我这个支持者也是一样的。默默的关怀，静静的守在一旁，这种无声的支持，他们需要吗？他们又会体会得到吗？


^大东的爸爸每个早上都会为他祈祷哦！


^大东看起来有点狠。

最近的话题总是围绕着大东。已经有了一个专写关于大东的事的blog了，还是会在私人日记里提到他。很不喜欢自己这个样子，因为好像有点花痴。的确，最近一直在看有大东饰演的戏，所以会不断的提到他。或许明天开始就不再在这里提到大东了。

有很多人说下个星期四会拿到成绩。我并不期待那天的到来，也不认为我会及格。每次一提到A Level, 我的心里总是酸溜溜的。我不能把时间倒转，所以尽量顺其自然。最近的心情因为大东而开心，但又因为焦虑而忧愁，情绪总是这样忽高忽低，觉得自己快有精神分裂症了。

放榜之前及之后，我应该什么话都不会说，所以也不用问我什么了。从历年看来，我身在的学校总是会有同学不及格，我很害怕自己就是其中之一。后悔自己乱选科，后悔自己没有留在前三个月的校舍，后悔自己没有上诉回去，后悔自己逞强，后会是自己决定的。

我没有梦想，也不知道以后要当什么。决定做的事总是不会如愿以偿，要不然就是自己在最后一分钟退缩或变卦。自己就是这样的情绪化。

没有要和什么人比，也没有自己的主见，所以少了冲劲。

但愿我上得了大学。

突然发现原来我的电脑也可以打华文字了！好开心啊！=）

下个星期三是情人节，我已经有约了。真是开心的一天！原本以为我们四个好姐妹可能再也没有机会一起出去了，没想到，受到上天特别眷顾的我们，还可以一起去庆祝情人节！这真是美好的一天的开始！

然后呢，发生一件令人啼笑皆非的事。。。。。。

下午时分，我和小莉决定偷懒，所以我们跑到三楼的厕所，因为二楼的厕所有和我们同一个房间的人在偷懒。很好笑吧！大家到了下午都特别的累。说回来，我们上了三楼，便看到有人在里头。那人穿着很奇特，白色的眼镜，亮亮的发夹，长相也有点奇怪。所以我们就假装我们要上厕所的样子，一人进了一间。然后就听到有另外一个人进来，所以就出来了。

出来以后，便听到一阵很响的屁声。我和小莉都忍俊不禁，克制自己的笑声。没想到，那个穿着奇怪的人，开始哈哈的笑，然后对着小莉，问：“是谁放的屁？”小莉说那人边笑边问。听到那响屁后，我们已经够难挨了，那个人竟然还问了这种问题，让我们忍不住地跑出厕所，笑个不停。

真不知该说那个人没脑或说她太过直接，倘若我是那个在厕所里放了个响屁的人，我一定不敢从cubicle里走出来。小莉还回答她说不知道是谁放的屁。我的天啊！当时我在想，如果是我们俩的其中一个放的，然后她又边笑边问我们，那场面一定够难堪，又极尴尬的。

真是笑死人了！

又来了，又来了！daniel今天又教我怎么看鞋了。真像sandy所说的，是个老妈子。怎么说我都已经做了近一个月了，大家还在教我怎么卖鞋。不过，我的导师都很有耐心的。可能是上辈子修来的福吧，做什么都会有人照应，何乐而不为呢？=）

真是开心的一天!



我的大东很帅吧？谢了谢了！=）

i've read a bit of the heated argument about fahrenheit's promotions for their debut. the record company has their own policy, the fans have their own views. i'm having mixed feeling now.

i used to think fahrenheit is just another normal boy band. i guess i'm wrong now because their fan base is unthinkably huge. the craze has just started and almost everyone's involved in it. will i be labelled as one of those 'brainless fans' too? but i didn't even take leave off my work to go for their autograph session. probably that's what sparked off that blog entry from chuz.

now i know it's tough to like someone, especially when he's not even aware of your existence. this feeling is hard to endure and devours your whole mind. i was happy to know i have a special force to motivate me, but at the same time, everybody's working hard to catch his attention. so i can just forget about even wanting to pass that little booklet to him as their record company has stated down that they'd not allow any presents. this little wish seems hard to fulfil this very moment.

this has been said endless times, by the people who comment on their forums. so this entry actually doesn't serve any purpose since it won't be noticed anyway.

let it fade. i'll grow up.

the 3 products from muji!


with courtesy from yan's wretch blog. =P

anyway, i bought this too, but in a different colour. it's yummy and i finished it within 3 days!

i got to thank yan for this too! marshmallow with strawberry chocolate!

i took this in a rush so you can't blame me for the huge contrast between the photos up there and this one!

the teh family! the teh-o, teh and the teh-si!

some random photo we took when we went to eat the fishball noodles at a stall after bugis junction! =) the fishball noodles has HUGE fishballs and i forgot to take photos of the bouncy meat! it's quite filling after gulping down the beverages! =) considering the location that it is at, the price is quite worth it.

after the main course, you can try the dessert which can be ordered next to the fishball noodle stall. the rojak! oh my god! there are lots of fruits inside the rojak along with the usual stuffs, like apples, starfruits, jambol. sweet and juicy fruits! everybody should try them!

we'll be back!

2 meetings within 24 hours. =) we're like lovebirds!!! yan is already 'booking' us for valentine's day this year. sadly to say, it's a wednesday. hopefully we'll all be able to meet up but our free days are different. i have to do the sales job on wednesday too. probably i'd take leave for that sales job to have a sumptuous and romantic dinner with them! =)

i'm very tired now. i think i dreamt of da dong last night but i couldn't recall the dream after i woke up. or maybe, i didn't dream of him afterall. =P whatever. i'm going to write to him!!!

i wonder when he'll update his blog again~

他们从我的家离去了。
感觉没有这几个朋友，
我一定会死掉。
人会变，
所以有这么久的朋友真是难能可贵。

我们终于在今天完成了到彼此家拜年的任务。
原本以为已经没有办法实现这个愿望了，
但越不可能发生的，
通常就这样没有理由的发生了。
我还希望我们能够一起度过每一个节日。
到现在为止，
还算又完成，
不过，
这一年还没有过到一半。
=P

一起看了许多飞轮海的访问，
笑毙了。
也看了他们诉说自己的爱情史。
哦，觉得tank好可怜哦。
听了他的故事后，
《我让你走了》这首歌有了更深一层的意义了。
好感动哦！~~

i don't know why i'm so crazy over that da dong. he's so cute and bubbly and friendly, yet a friend of mine thinks that he likes to catch attention just because i told her that da dong will take down photographs of all the presents that his fans had given him. she started arguing with me, saying that he just wants to catch attention because nobody will take down photos of gifts. hey, i do. she said sarcastically, where and did i take down the gifts that she had given me? i took down all the gifts that my friends had given me after i had gotten a digital camera, ok? i mean, come on, i didn't even insult the stars she likes.

forget it, just blabbering meaninglessly about this 'hot' person. she's 'hot' because everybody's dissatisfied with her and discussing behind her back now. she has done many things which spite people and people came to complain and asked for my opinions on her. i didn't know how to react because i was angry with her a few days ago, but not now. it's snowballing because all our grudges are placed together. i wonder if she can sense it.

i felt bad for not speaking up for her. but at the same time, i'm feeling pissed at her sarcasm and insensitivity. she's nice and direct. probably that's what they call as overdosage. that if you interact too much with a particular person, you'll probably get an overdosage and lose control and EXPLODE!

i'm exaggerating.

anyway, i still treasure all my friends.

on another note, i think i'm really blessed. every job i had gotten, i'd meet nice people and supervisors or teachers, like xmy, kc, cynthia, sandy, daniel and jason. jason saw that i was cold and lowered the air-con for me, then kc helped me adjust the air-con's blowing direction. suddenly everybody crowded around my seat to adjust the air-con like i'm so big shot. even after that, they kept asking me if i still feel cold and whether the temperature is ok for me. as for my sales job, i had made several severe mistakes, but sandy and daniel didn't scold me and taught me a lot of stuffs. i don't know how to repay all the little things everybody has done for me.

probably it's because i look very vulnerable and lost. i know i always have that blur look which makes people 'look out' for me. this is why it's always advantageous to look guai. =)

i know i'm very blessed.

夏雪(飞轮海)
你给的爱带着温度　有谁拥抱是最清楚
心跳传来的幸福　像一个敲动的暖炉
手放进口袋的温度　融化了中古的露珠
冰天雪地的国度　能抱着你就很满足

谁都知道气候会变　更别说诺言
你的冬衣还留在我床前

你的世界已经准时晴天
远方的我在夏天看雪
我的孤独慢慢冻结
在没有你的夜

给我的爱已经过了期限
而我的心在夏天下雪
明明寒冬已经很远
我还是无法结束这冬眠

我的世界乱了季节　赤道居然会飘着雪
热带雨林的原野 　看起来白茫茫一片
回忆在我心中积雪　连日出也无法融解
应该流汗的夏天　可是却一直流眼泪

谁都知道 气候会变　更别说诺言
你的冬衣 还留在我床前

你的世界已经准时晴天
远方的我在夏天看雪
我的孤独慢慢冻结
在没有你的夜

给我的爱已经过了期限
而我的心在夏天下雪
明明寒冬已经很远
我还是无法结束这冬眠
没有你的夜

你的世界 （你的世界）已经准时晴天
远方的我在夏天看雪 （看雪）
我的孤独慢慢冻结合唱： 在没有你的夜 （在没有你的夜）

给我的爱已经过了期限
而我的心在夏天下雪 （下雪）
明明寒冬已经很远
我还是无法结束这冬眠

我还是无法 结束这冬眠